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  • Writer's pictureJordan Drayer

Humble, Grateful Leader

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Hod of Malchut

Hi everyone, Jordan Drayer, the savvy millennial voice actress who is grateful for her talents. Today is six weeks and five days of the Omer. If you want to know more about the Omer and how it works, check out the links in the description.

Today is Hod of Malchut, humility of sovereignty. This is gratefulness to God or whatever force you choose to acknowledge for your sovereignty, being grateful that you can steer your own life.

There will always be boundaries, like those of society, or if you're a child, those of your parents, but within those limits, you can choose who you want to be, how you want to act, what you want to pursue. And this free will is wonderful. We have instincts, but we are not bound to them like other animals are. We can feel that instinct voice telling us not to approach a fire, but we can override that voice and approach anyway.

Does your sovereignty and independence humble you? Do you appreciate the blessing of your special talents and personality? For a long time, I didn't, because I thought, "I'm quiet and nerdy and don't laugh easily and don't care much for pop culture; why is this a blessing?" I thought all of my stuff together made me too hard to get to know. My excellent memory for facts combined with my want to be helpful makes people think I'm just a know-it-all showing off. I'm grateful now, but it took learning. You have to kind of learn how to be yourself, like know how you won't be everyone's cup of tea, and for which reasons.

While everyone says not to care what others think, I think there's still merit in code-switching. Like I'm 50% myself with people that I know are not into fantasy and science fiction; I stick to conversation they can swallow. But with my nerdy people, the ones I've spent so long looking for, then I can be more my whole self. I am learning how to be myself with people from the get-go, so they'll know right away, and I'll be able to find the ones like me more easily.

Today's exercise is to acknowledge God (or whatever you choose) for creating you with personal dignity. So if you're not a God person, maybe be glad for the idea of personal dignity and that you at least have it. Go on a walk and meditate on this or talk to God, write about it, talk to someone else, whatever works. I thank you for watching; please like and share, and I'll see you tomorrow.

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